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Im in such shock...I lost a really good friend of mine...All i keep saying is she aint really gone...Her mothers doing a autopsy..to see what really happen..But what they think is she has relapsed recently..and gotten back with her EX..who got her back into dope..they sed she OD'd and instead of him trying to help and call 911 he just left her..to come back later to her dead...My counselor who we shared with..was really upset...Because she was such a wonderful person..and this isnt because shes dead..She really was i saw her 3 weeks ago..and she took the time out to ask me how i was doing..because shes been busy with school and everything..I knew she was having problems...But i didnt wanna totally come out and accuse her of relapsing since at that time i thought it was just a rumor..But i did ask her how she was doing but she totally didnt wanna talk about it..But now that its after the fact..Im sitting her thinking maybe i should of pressured her..Im also thinking after how many times she taught me to grab a hostage when im craving..why didnt she do the same when she was in trouble...I know it was her pride and embarrisment which kept her from asking for help..I guess im gonna go through alotta emotions...I never had a friend of mine as close as this die on me..It is another lesson in this disease..and how ruthless it is...Even after all the work she did..She seemed like the perfect recovering addict..Everything you think your suppose to do she did...She totally made a complete 360..When she first came to my program she was loud and vulgur...People sed when she be with my counselor in his office you could hear her cursing him out while they were all in the group room...I never saw her that way...When i got to the program she was a nice caring person...she was the first who reached out to me.,..She helped me out when my bf got really bad into xanax...She was a great friend..and im never gonna forget her...she will live on in me and all who she touched..Godbless you EVA,,